Thursday, February 21, 2013
A few weeks ago something became aware to me that I obviously already knew- I have 5 kids! With that came an overwhelming sence of obligation and profound need to become a better Mother. It hit me that, no I don't get in my car and drive to an office everyday to go to my job. My job is right here. My "office" is my home and my chirldren are my "work". I was reminded that there is more than just surviving the day and making it until bed time so I can collapse and slip into my coma- it should be more and better. I should be uplifing my chirldren and teaching them about life lessons. I should be instilling values and work ethic. I should be their cheerleader in life and show my love in the ways that they need it. I should be more intune to them and view them as people and not just little kids. It hit me that the Lord trusted me with 5 precious souls and my "job" is to give them the best I can and all I can. Somedays I swear I am going to run away and never return, and other days I promise myself they will sit in time out for 5 hours until Dad gets home, but I know that all the crazyness is apart of the package. Kids are kids and I need to allow them to act their age and not expect the world. I think sometimes because I grew up so fast, I expect my children to do the same. I have to stop and allow them to be them. I don't want to crush their spirits. 8 year old girls are supposed to be silly, and 10 year old boys are supposed to make exploding sounds all the time. 3 years olds are supposed to draw on white furniture and middle children are intitled to their weird freak out sessions. I had to take a look at myself and realize I need to improve- a lot. I know the Winter is always hard because it's freezing and no one wants to go out and play. Its dark and gloomy and just plain cold. I love spring, I adore the soft breeze and the time when you dust off the outside toys and send the kids out to just play. I look forward to walks to the park and around the neighborhood again. Thank you Heavenly Father for letting me enjoy these pretty awesome kids- thank you, thank you, thank you.
Posted by Emily at 9:34 AM
Earlier in the month I pulled something in my neck and have been in a lot of pain ever since. In the beginning it felt like a horrible stiff neck with alot of pain that spred to my shoulders and jaw again. I tried to lay down often and I iced it like crazy. I took Advil around the clock because when it wore off, it hurt so much. I borrowed items to help and put poor Trav to work every second his hands would rub the pain. It's actually gotten better and I am so relieved, there is still a knot he's working on, but I can turn my neck now and its improving! Most of the time it takes a month of pure awfulness and a million dollars later from chiropractor visits to correct the problem, so I can handle the dull ache that still remains. My back has been giving me more problems too and so I think I need to get in and get things realligned. I have to accept that I have a body of a 90 year old woman and if I want relief, in most cases, I have to take care of the real problem.During the same time,my left brea*st beginning to ache, burn, throb and kill when I nursed. I was having chills and starting to feel awful and ache all over. I knew what was starting and called my OB for antibiotics for mastitis. She called them in and I started taking those bad boys because Mastitus is the devil. Pure and simply- the devil. If you can catch it soon enough, everyone's well being will be a billion times better, and if you don't you wish you would drift away and die. When I get it, it is the closest to death as I ever want to get! It's been a few weeks of yuckyness and I'm glad to be feeling better. Now if I could just get Mr Roman to stop waking up every 1 to 2 hours! Seriously, he's a newborn all over again!
Posted by Emily at 9:16 AM
Last night was one of those wild dreams where you wake up and think? What just happened? That was SO weird. It was totally a pregnant dream, minus me being pregnant! The dream went tlike this: Our beloved Cheeto, who was a boy, somehow turned into a girl guinea pig and got pregnant. Awhile later, on my carpet, she began delivering her babies, except they weren't guinea pigs- they were HUMAN babies of all sizes. She (he?) was very aggitated and so I put her back in her cage and watched these little humans laying there breathing on my carpet. knowing they would need to nurse, I put them in the cage with her. The problem was, another guinea pig magically appeared with a baby leapoard. They were going crazy in the cage stepping on her offspring, and poor Cheeto was trying to heal after her delivery and bond with her weird babies. I took the other animals out and that's all I can remember! So weird. Just had to write it down so I could remember it!
Posted by Emily at 8:51 AM
Seriously, who takes a picture of their recently shampooded van??? I do folks! For months & months the van has been awful. A long snowy, muddy, wet winter didn't help the situation and every day I got inside, I felt so gross. I wont even begin to list the dreadful items I found. If you have kids and a mini van, I'm sure our items are exactly the same. It took almost 2 hours yesterday, but it's done and it feels awesome!
Posted by Emily at 8:43 AM