We tried...

When the temple cleaning sign up went around a few weeks ago, the 3 of us signed up and decided to carpool together. (Jana, Kristen & I) We arrived at the temple, but there was no one to be found. We all thought it was a little strange to clean on Christmas Eve, but I thought: there was no better present to give myself than 3 hours inside the temple with friends- so I was excited. We left the temple and went shopping and girl talked for a few hours instead. We tried though...

Christmas lights...

We took the kids out to look at Christmas lights last night and after seeing Jayna do the "MiniVan Express" thing, I knew I had to follow. The kids loved it and we found the awesome-est house near by. There was a ferris wheel in their yard! And an igloo. It was super cool. We came home and watched Christmas movies and I quickly feel asleep before 9:00, I was so tired.

Impossible...

It is virtually impossible to get a decent family picture! I swear, someone is always being goofy, one is always mad, the other is never looking, eyes are closed, someone is always whinning, I look like a she devil and someone is always close to tears! It's maddening as a Mom because I can't afford the super cute portraits where we are all color cordinated on train tracks or in an apple orchard. I just want 1 normal picture!!!

Trusting in the Lord...

I can finally talk about it now! I was called to be in the Relief Society Presidency and for the past 10 days I've really been talking to Heavenly Father about it. (Mostly doubting my abilities to carry out such a big calling) While thinking about the women before me, all I was doing was comparing myself to them and feeling doubtful I would measure up. Yesterday while in the hall, Sister Hyer gave me her congrats and that's when I told her how nervous I was. I told her, "I'll never be able to fit in Virginia's shoes!" That's when she said, "You're not supposed to fit in her shoes, you're supposed to fit in yours!"  I've been thinking about that and I know she is right, it's just hard to picture myself fullfilling this calling without completely falling on my face. The great news about being 2nd counselor, is I'll still be over the activity commitee, which I have loved for the past several years, so I'm blessed to have a slight idea of some of my responsibilities there. It goes back to what my Mom is always reminding me of- turning it over to the Lord and just letting go of it, really trusting him. Honestly, I'm horrible at it because it requires letting go of my control and I feel crazy when I'm forced to do that. I am thankful for this chance to serve and pray I will be enough. My fear has always been I am not enough in life. Hopefully God will make up the difference and I will be ok.