My Little man...

I'm not sure how I feel about Tristin being 10 years old today. Because I can't do anything about it- I should just embrace it, but how do I let go of the fact he's growing up and turning into a young man? He is a good boy who makes me laugh and completely confuses me at times. He loves the computer, camping with his Dad, anything sharp or has the ability to explode. He's all boy and makes noises all the time, refuses to pick up his dirty socks and doesn't see the need in wearing clean clothes as often as I would hope. He helps his siters, hates folding laundry, loves to cook and bake, enjoys playing with friends, is in love with anything Pokemon and is so much like his Dad. he loves rocks, maps and animals. He enjoys inventing things and talks about blood too much for my ears. He still kisses my cheeck and tells me he loves me- so I think we are good for now- but how do I handle the upcoming puberty years with hairy armpits and legs to look at? Or girls calling? Or him sneaking out to meet his girlfriend? How will he ultimatly turn out? Will he be kind man who opens doors for women? A man who still calls me to tell me about his day or sadness or joy? Will I have ruined him so badly he will want to flee or not be around me? I hope I'm doing something right, please Lord, help me do something right the next few years. I want him to love me and look back and say, " Yeah, my Mom was cool. She took noodle baths and made me cool art projects for me and always bought me stuff at yard sales." More importantly I hope he says, " Not a day went by that she missed telling me she loved me, or hugged me or sang me crazy weird songs that I hated." I hope he says, "My Mom loved me enough to be strict, adored me enough to say No and believed in me enough to say yes." I hope he's one of those missionaries that tears up when he talks about how much he loves his Mom. I hope the impact I am making is positive and helpful and helping him grow into a good man. It's hard to watch him grow up but I'm so excited for him too. I just wish he would stop growing up so fast, just stay little my sweet little man. I love you so much Tristin. You changed my world completely 10 years ago and I have never been the same since. I think back to those few years when it was just the 3 of us and I smile at that time. You were so little, happy and full of joy. I love our time together too, surrounded by a bunch of sisters who drive you nuts and make you laugh. I love our dates just you and I and I'm happy to see you turning out to be just what I hoped for... Happy Birthday!