Monday, January 4, 2010


Lately, I have been so grateful for my quiet little life. Besides giving birth, things have been nice & relaxing for the past little while. Willow is a terrific baby, Trav has had a ton of time off, the kids have been mostly super, I've been able to organize closets, drawers, crafts shelves etc... , church started at 9:00 AM! I've been sewing, making, creating, I've felt insprired, on top of things (except for laundry & Grace's room. What is it about a 3 year old pulling out EVERYTHING from EVERY drawer in her room?!!)All I can say is, life has been good.I've been focusing on the postive, watching re runs of The Office & SNL (& laughing my butt off!)and spending more time with my kids. I've been allowing myself creative time and time away, but I've also been in tune to things/people around me and it's felt refreshing. (I'm still crazy though, don't get me wrong!)it's just been nice to reflect more on my blessings (like my VW that needs $ 3,000 dollars worth of work! Sigh. Scream. Wipe away tears. But, I'm grateful that my husband is letting me keep it AND put more $ into it, thanks God for making faster engines, that sold him!) With all that rambling, I do need to improve in a lot of areas:

*read my scriptures more! I'm seriuosly lacking here. And preparing for my lessons don't count!
*Spend more time playing with my babies. (Yes, that means pull out that horrid messy Play Doh and roll little pink snakes with them!)
*Talk nicer to my children/less nagging & yelling (yes, I get angry at my children).
*Have more study time or "school work" with Daisy.
* Loose 20 more pounds! Or stop eating 500 bags of Halloween candy!Either would do the trick!
*Get to the temple! Really, I'm always going to have an excuse... "but I'm pregnant, but I just had a baby, but I'm nursing, but it's hard to find a sitter for 4 kids, but, but but. I NEED the blessings!
*Cook. I HATE COOKING!Hate the time it takes. hate the mess. Hate the clean up. Love to eat. I have 6 mouthes to feed, so I better learn to enjoy it more.
*Fold laundry as soon as it comes out of the dryer instead of throwing in on the floor in a huge pile while walking away, saying"I'll get to you in 5 minutes." It just doesn't happen. (Thank goodness for a husband that helps me fold laundry at 11:00 PM!)

...the list could go on for a long time, but lastly... I need to love myself more. I need to value who I am, see the good, improve the not-so-good, but love who I see staring back at me. I need to remember I am a daughter of God who has value and who is loved. I cannot change the past, even if I wish I could 500 times a day. all I can do is accept this person I am, this body I live in and where I am in my life. I have the whole world, right here in this little house of mine, and yes, even with a broken Volkswagon,tons of laundry to do, clothes I still can't fit into... I am still blessed.