Wednesday, July 21, 2010
When Chelsea told me thay were moving to Portland, it felt like a piece of my heart broke off and flew away. I was stunned. Shocked. Heart sick. Happy. Excited for them, but mostly incredibly sad. Over the next 2 weeks, I tried to help them pack, clean, take care of the twins, bring food- anything I could to to ease the terrible load they were both carrying. I tried really hard to hide my pain, but over the next few weeks, I just couldn't control the sadness. I was even angry. Angry that we wouldn't have our Papa Murphy pizza nights, our ice cream nights, our long talks, our Target shopping trips & those amazing chocolate chip cookies of hers! My heart ached as I thought about not having her around the corner any more. Not having my kids run up to Shane and hug him, not having them there when my world was falling apart or have them around to pick up our mail when we went on vacations! I could barley think about it and when I did, all I could do was cry to my Mom, or lay in bed for awhile and let the tears disappear. Chelsea is like my sister. I love her to death and would do anything for her. Over the years, we went through so many things together. So much happiness, so many tears, frustration, excitemnet, joy, heart ache and a thousand more memories. It's been a month now and I miss them so much. I miss the twins, I miss Chelsea's smiling face and I miss watching Shane hold the girls at church. I just miss everything. I am so happy that Shane is continuing his education, but I'm sad that they had to go away to do it. I hate going over to get the mail and water the garden, because they aren't there. The house is empty and they are so many memories there. It will take me awhile to adjust, she was so much apart of my heart. I thank the Lord for amazing friends, even if it feels like my heart has been ripped from my chest. I love you guys and miss you so much!
Posted by Emily at 2:55 PM
All Summer long the kids have heard the ice cream truck circling our neighborhood- and all Summer long I have said "No." to their relentless pleading.I reminded them of our .25 box of popcicles and almost free ice cream in the freezer, but it just wasn't the same.
The first time the kids heard the ice cream truck and Dad was home, this is what happened...
(Never mind all the ice cream I could have purchased with that $ 3.00!)
What a nice Papa...
Posted by Emily at 2:40 PM
It was been a very busy few months for our family and I think we are all tired of driving now. We had the most wonderful vacations and were able to see Trav's family, go to G-ma B's 100th b-day, see my brother get married, go to Portland for G-pa's funeral,go the coast twice and home to Seattle twice as well! I feel so blessed to have the family that I do. I am grateful for all of the memories we made!
Posted by Emily at 2:28 PM
On July 10th, my G-pa passed away. He was 84 years old, fighting Cancer and too fail to hold on any longer. My heart hurts for my Dad & Aunt Helene, as they have lost both of their parents now. We drove to Portland on Wed. July 14th and stayed 2 nights there. The funeral was very nice. We sang, we celebrated his life and we learned that he had even recieved a purple heart when he was in the Navy. When they removed the flag and began folding it, I couldn't hold back my tears. Watching the military men fold it pefectly and then had it to G-ma Virgina, was so touching.My heart hurt for Virgina as I thought how difficult it would be to lose your husband after taking care of him for so long. The hardest part for me though,was watching my Father during the funeral. As they were reading the letter he had written, I glanced over to see my Father struggling to hold back the tears. I just sat and watched his quivering chin and lips and it hurt to much to see him mourning the loss of his Dad. My love and compassion for my Father grew more in that moment.
The sad part of losing him is that I barley knew him. I have memories from when I was older, when I was in Jr. High and High school, going to see Dad, but we didn't have the relationship that I had hoped for. I sent pictures of the kids, and we stayed a night with them a few years ago,but the memories are few. I do remember him always playing the piano and singing though. We played Yahtzee when we were there, and we always signed the guest book as we entered their house. I hope that my Dad, Aunt& G-ma Virgina will be able to move on, heal, and remember what they did share with G-pa. It was a wonderful day and I am so grateful we could be there to share that moment with them.
Posted by Emily at 1:45 PM
We wanted the kids to have fun before the funeral (mostly to get all their energy out so they would be quiet!) so we took them to Bulwinkles and bought 100 tokens for them to go wild with. They ended up finding this game that spit out a TON of tickets, so we earned 716! I was impressed!
Posted by Emily at 1:21 PM
We left Portland Friday morning and drove over to Cannon Beach for the day. We really wanted to stay a night there, but with Summer prices, hotels were just too expensive. We stayed 2 nights in our hotel in Portland and then drove over in the morning to save a little $. I even scored some canning jars at a yard sale! 56 jars for $ 2.00! Super Duper! We had a wonderful day on the beach. The water was really cold, but we splashed around anyway. I would pay a kazillion dollars to live on the coast- there is something so inviting, calming and relaxing about it. I miss the water terribly and know now, I definatly took it for granted growing up. We ate lunch in Seaside, drove back to Cannon Beach and went shopping and ate ice cream. It was a great day. We left around 5:00 PM for Mom's house.
Posted by Emily at 1:07 PM
Caleb, Eli & Cindy took us to Gasworks overlooking Union Lake. It was the most PERFECTLY sunny day we could have hoped for. I didn't get any pictuers of the play area, but we had a great time. We ate snow cones, climed the HUGE hill, played with the frisbee and sat on a blanket watching the boats. It was an incredible day!
Posted by Emily at 12:19 PM