Thursday, May 30, 2013
Last night when I went in the bathroom, Daisy was in there and had been crying for a lengthly amount of time (due to her splotchy face). When I asked her what was wrong, she shook her head and tried to control her tears. "DAISY, what is wrong???" I asked again. This time she looked at me and said, " Mom, I just don't know if Angel likes me or not." I paused and did not handle it very well. "Oh my word Daisy, I thought you were hurt!" Grace stepped in seconds later and started lovingly talking to her. "Daisy, how does he treat you? If he's nice to you, it means he likes you...." I exited the bathroom and let Grace handle that one, but since then, it's been on my mind. I was in love 36 different times when I was her age. I got married several times on the playground and I still remember my Kindergarten crush- Evan Green. I still have the journals that confesses my love for all the boys in my life and I wrote poetry that makes my blush now. I used to be a romantic. Now I'm just a tired Mom who views it as a waste of money and another thing I HAVE to do. (I'm awful, I know and I'm honestly thinking about taking some love life classes to help me out!)Anyway, I realized that Miss Daisy and I are a lot alike. We both love people, we are fragile, we want to help, we want to make things better, we do everything we can to make others feel happy, we cry, we get our feelings hurt and we are sensitive. Today when I went to school, I asked her which one Angel was and she pointed him out to me. At least she has good taste! He was a cutie! We both smiled and she ran off to play with friends. I had to document the tears and later I will sit down and have the conversation with her that we should have had yesterday. I have to remember she is a little girl and whatever is going on in her life is the biggest deal to her. I need to stop and be sensetive. I need to remember that about 3 seconds ago it was me buying teddy bears and giving posters that said I love you on them to the boys in my life. I love you Daisy and I am very sorry.
Posted by Emily at 12:25 PM
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Today is Grace's last day of Kindergarten and last week was her graduation. She made it!! And about a mile ahead of her class. Half way through the year she became really bored with school and actually didn't want to go anymore. She already knew everything and was helping all the kids in her class learn everything. They had her going to the 1sr grade class and other classes all the time to help challenge her, but nothing worked. I know she enjoyed school and she loved her teacher, I just wish we would have moved her to 1st grade early on. She's looking forward to Summer and I hope next year is awesome for her!
Posted by Emily at 11:43 AM
We celebrated our 13th Anniversary a few days ago! It consisted of, helping a friend move for several hours, getting the kids to all their overnight sitters, going out to Olive Garden with our gift certificate, picking up a dozen donuts, getting our PJ's on, eating half the box of donuts, hoping in bed at 8:15 and watching a movie. We picked Roman up at about 10 PM and fell asleep after that! We were so tired. On Monday, our actual Anniversary, I layed in bed until 9AM, went to a freinds BBQ, went for a afternoon drive with the kids, helped our friends move some more, picked up a movie and cookies and watched The Voice! We are pretty boring around here anymore. We are like an old couple- always looking forward to bedtime!I'll post our 13 reasons why we love being married list later!
Posted by Emily at 11:38 AM
Thursday, May 23, 2013
It's crazy to think that exactly 11 years ago almost to the minute,I was giving birth to my sweet boy. Tristin changed my life back then and 11 years later I still adore being his Mama. He puts up with me constantly checking his arm pits for hair, talking about puburity non stop, asking if he likes girls yet, drilling the consequences of drugs and alcohol into his skull, and telling him how kissing will only get him in trouble later in life. I make him kiss my cheek every day and he gets embarressed when I try to hold his hand in public. He's my sweet boy who is amazing me every day with his love for reading, his awesome cooking skills, his love for his family and his home videos where he teaches people how to use his homemade weapons. He is turning into a young man and I'm scared out of my mind that I've messed him up, and then so proud the next minute as he hands me tithing money from his birthday stash. I love him with all my heart and pray that one day he will know all my craziness was done out of 100% love for him. Tristin wanted a Halo party this year and although impossible to find anything party related, I tried to make it happen. It was very low key, with only 6 boys and 3 neighbor kids this year. They had a water ballon fight, egg on the spoon race, wrestled on the tramp, played with squirt guns, frisbees and ran around like wild boys. We had 1 boy show up at 4:30 and then did not leave until 9:00 I thought was kind of strange, when the party was from 6 to 8 pm, but I'm glad I could also be their babysitter tonight! Please let me never become one of those people who takes advantage of people! ( DeArley, I already feel this way with you most of the time, but I know how much you adore the kids, so I'm trying not to feel so bad when you have them so often!)It was a good night, I'm just tired! Off to get the little man down now! Happy Birthday Buddy!
Posted by Emily at 9:36 PM
Thursday, May 16, 2013
My little man is almost 11 and he completed his requirements to receive his arrow of light! He will now be in the 11 year old scouts with Brother Murphy. I was proud of all his hard work this past year. Now my late nights are filled with a jumbo scout manual trying to get a grip on that program! Way to go my sweet boy!
Posted by Emily at 7:06 AM
There are no words to describe the feelings I have about middle school approaching in a few months. Am I ready to let go of my little boy? Heck no! I am FREAKING OUT!!! We've had lots of talks about the good, the bad and the ugly and all I can do is pray like a wild woman. I'm trying to focus on all the amazing things middle school will offer, but sadly, I'm still searching for them! I know he will survive, we all did, but I'm not ready for this! Just the other day Daisy asked what getting to second base meant!
Posted by Emily at 7:03 AM
Every once in awhile when I take personal inventory of my life, I feel a little lost and buried. The past few months have been a little wild and I'm still trying to come down from it all. I know myself and know I can function at a crazy stress level, but I think I'm really tired right now. I can't seem to rest my mind and my anxiety level is through the roof. I keep praying to settle down the thoughts in my head, but I just feel like I'm spinning constantly. The thoughts, the to-do's, the obsessing- it just doesn't seem to stop. And sleep, I wish there was more than a few hours, all of which are interupted. I love my life and where I'm at, I just feel a little crazy and need to find a way to calm it all down. I think I need to go to the temple and clear my head! Just a morning vent...
Posted by Emily at 6:54 AM