Thursday, May 23, 2013

Happy 11th Birthday Sweet Tristin...

It's crazy to think that exactly 11 years ago almost to the minute,I was giving birth to my sweet boy. Tristin changed my life back then and 11 years later I still adore being his Mama. He puts up with me constantly checking his arm pits for hair, talking about puburity non stop, asking if he likes girls yet, drilling the consequences of drugs and alcohol into his skull, and telling him how kissing will only get him in trouble later in life. I make him kiss my cheek every day and he gets embarressed when I try to hold his hand in public. He's my sweet boy who is amazing me every day with his love for reading, his awesome cooking skills, his love for his family and his home videos where he teaches people how to use his homemade weapons. He is turning into a young man and I'm scared out of my mind that I've messed him up, and then so proud the next minute as he hands me tithing money from his birthday stash. I love him with all my heart and pray that one day he will know all my craziness was done out of 100% love for him. Tristin wanted a Halo party this year and although impossible to find anything party related, I tried to make it happen. It was very low key, with only 6 boys and 3 neighbor kids this year. They had a water ballon fight, egg on the spoon race, wrestled on the tramp, played with squirt guns, frisbees and ran around like wild boys. We had 1 boy show up at 4:30 and then did not leave until 9:00 I thought was kind of strange, when the party was from 6 to 8 pm, but I'm glad I could also be their babysitter tonight! Please let me never become one of those people who takes advantage of people! ( DeArley, I already feel this way with you most of the time, but I know how much you adore the kids, so I'm trying not to feel so bad when you have them so often!)It was a good night, I'm just tired! Off to get the little man down now! Happy Birthday Buddy!

Thursday, May 16, 2013

Walk to school...

This morning was walk to school day! We met at the park, were escorted by the police, walked in classes and had fun!

Arrow of Light!

My little man is almost 11 and he completed his requirements to receive his arrow of light! He will now be in the 11 year old scouts with Brother Murphy. I was proud of all his hard work this past year. Now my late nights are filled with a jumbo scout manual trying to get a grip on that program! Way to go my sweet boy!

Middle school open house...

There are no words to describe the feelings I have about middle school approaching in a few months. Am I ready to let go of my little boy? Heck no! I am FREAKING OUT!!! We've had lots of talks about the good, the bad and the ugly and all I can do is pray like a wild woman. I'm trying to focus on all the amazing things middle school will offer, but sadly, I'm still searching for them! I know he will survive, we all did, but I'm not ready for this! Just the other day Daisy asked what getting to second base meant!

Tristin's track meet...

Tristin had his track meet 2 weeks ago. He was in 2 of the jumps and did pretty well. It was fun to sit in the stands and watch all the kids.

A little lost...

Every once in awhile when I take personal inventory of my life, I feel a little lost and buried. The past few months have been a little wild and I'm still trying to come down from it all. I know myself and know I can function at a crazy stress level, but I think I'm really tired right now. I can't seem to rest my mind and my anxiety level is through the roof. I keep praying to settle down the thoughts in my head, but I just feel like I'm spinning constantly. The thoughts, the to-do's, the obsessing- it just doesn't seem to stop. And sleep, I wish there was more than a few hours, all of which are interupted. I love my life and where I'm at, I just feel a little crazy and need to find a way to calm it all down. I think I need to go to the temple and clear my head! Just a morning vent...

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

10 months old...

My little man turned 10 months yesterday!

Being a Mom is awesome!

Oh how fun it is to go back thrugh pictures! Here's just a few of why Motherhood is the best!!!

I forgot my Mom on Mother's Day...

I 100% completely forgot to send my Mom even a card on Mother's Day! I'm not joking. Sure we talked twice that day, but I'm not sure how it happened. I remembered flowers for Edith & DeArley, but when it came to sending my Mama ANYTHING, it just slipped my mind! Honestly. I am slightly horrified that I even admitted that to her on the phone, but until that exact second when we were talking, I didn't realize it! Sorry Mom, for my honesty, just know that our almost daily talks clouded my thinking and I forgot! You know I love you. You know my heart aches for you every second. You know that when I call and you are busy I'm kind of sad because we can't talk as long. You know that I come to you for everything. You know I would be utterly lost without your voice. You know I love your smile. You know that I trust you. You know I value your opinion. You know that as long as we can talk, I'll be ok. You know that when you say you have to go, I'll find a way to keep talking. You know that you will receive yard sale jewerly from me. You know it hurts my heart when I can't help you set up, bake and clean up after holiday dinners. You know I would be there if I could. You know I miss your food. You know I would help you if I were there. You know I get some of my crazy-ness from you. You know I heard you when you counseled me about a large family. You know how much my heart breaks when we have to let go and say goodbye. You know I crave your lemon squares, your enchallidas and split pea soup all the time. You know listening to Barry White music when the boys were gone was a little weird. You know I appriciate you. You know I got my desire to serve others from you. You know just what to say when I need to hear it. You know when I need to hear the truth and you give it. You know when I'm lying. And I hope you know I am really sorry for not sending you a Mother's Day gift. You should know I'm mailing it out today. You are my world and I love you.