Wrapping it up...

It's official, school starts in 1 more week and I am wild with fear about Middle school, extremely nervous, Excited for Daisy, secretely pleading with the Lord Grace will not be bored, and a tiny tiny thrilled for a few quiet hours with my little ones! The entire Summer I told myself- dont be one of those Mom's who wishes school would start so they can ship their kids off and have less responsibility, but now after a super long, crazy hard Summer- I am kind of ready for the next chapter- that chapter being school to start again! It's always a little bitter sweet because although I thrive off of structure, schedules and strict bed times, I kind of enjoy 12 weeks of chilling out a tiny bit and getting to sleep in 5 minutes longer myself! I registered Tristin for Middle school this morning and it felt so weird. I spoke with a teacher that calmed my anxiety a tad bit by telling me all the 6th graders have their own "wing" and kind of stayed there most the time. It made me feel like he would be in some kind of protective bubble that I dream so much of! I'm just scared. What if I didn't teach him enough about respect, how to treat the ladies, how to say please and thank you, how to love himself enough to say no to peer pressure, to speak kind words, that bullying hurts people, that being cool really means staying close to to Heavenly Father and that his choices will direct his life? What if I still have more to teach him and it's too late? Darn it, I don't want him to grow up yet. I don't want the exposure. I just want my little man wearing Hulk pj's and smashing his hands together and trying to turn his face green in the grocery store- back. I want my little man, and he is no longer that...